Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Deployment is a four letter word...?

Deployment. It really is an ugly word. I would like to run and hide from it. Unfortunately, it's knocking on my door, and I can avoid it no longer. Tomorrow I will say 'see you later' (never goodbye!) to my husband, as this word takes him far from me for a time. From the very beginning, I knew this day would come. We have been given quite a reprieve of it, until now. As newlyweds, we have been able to experience all of the firsts together; first Christmas, birthdays, anniversary, and what a gift that has been. Now I must relinquish him to a higher cause, and try to keep my chin up and my perspective positive. What a feat. I have been so incredibly blessed with the support system around me; other military wives, my friends, my family. They are all my backbone right now, and I am so so grateful I can lean on them right now, knowing I am surrounded by so many people who love me and want to take care of me. I couldn't do it alone. Maybe it's appropriate that on this last day I woke up so early in the morning, for I think that is the best time for thinking, and plenty of time for arming myself for the day with strength and positivity.
I don't want to go through these next several months. This lifestyle is extremely difficult, and sometimes I wish I could run from it. I do hope that by the end of it, I will be a better person. A better friend, a better daughter, a better wife. I know there are many positives to come out of this, if I choose them. I hope I do.


  1. hang in there honey. i know it's hard sometimes but we are all here for you :)

  2. It's an interesting lifestyle we've chosen, that's for sure! Full of challenges, but also full of rewards. I promise you, the feelings you experience seeing him after six long months is unlike any high you will ever experience!!


    Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

  3. It will be hard Katie, but know that you have friends that are there for you (even if we're not physically there). You'll be in our prayers!

    John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

  4. I love you guys, thank you. :)